Bah, humbug!
I feel a little bit less depressed this afternoon than I have for the rest of the week. I’ve been having one of those weeks where you don’t want to get out of bed, not because you’re tired, but just because you feel you can’t face the day. The audit I’m working on is so rubbish – I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing and the client isn’t here/keeps refusing to speak to us, so it’s virtually impossible to get the information I need to do my job, even if I could work out what that was. Obviously I am doing some work, I’m working quite hard in fact, but most of what I’m doing is probably inadequate and that’s kind of depressing. Like I’m doing it as well as I can based on the knowledge and resources available to me, but that’s still probably not well enough, and everybody out here is basically just hoping that the company goes bust and we don’t have to finish the job. With net liabilities of £11million, it is somewhat difficult to argue that the group is still a going concern!
I am writing a more cheerful blogpost about my visit to Munich, honestly. It’s partially written and saved on my phone at the moment, although I don’t know when I’ll finish it. Tomorrow is the audit department Christmas lunch, followed by the company social club Christmas party, and I’m not especially looking forward to either. I don’t like parties at the best of times, and I don’t like work parties in particular because I don’t feel like I have a lot in common with most of the people I work with. I get on with them on a professional basis, of course, and can chat to them about work matters, but outside of work I wouldn’t choose to speak to most of them if I didn’t have to. Normally I spend the Christmas party talking to one friend in particular, but it turns out he can’t make it this year because he’s on a training course 
So now I feel a little depressed about that too and wish I’d just booked the day off as holiday, which I would have done months ago were it not for a glitch in the holiday booking system which meant that my holiday entitlement is showing incorrectly.
You may not have guessed, but I don’t feel at all Christmassy. Bah, humbug!